knocked up: round 1

get in line

I've talked many times about how I'm not a huge fan of pregnancy. I often wonder what pregnancy and childbirth was to be like before the fall of man.  Was it going to be perfect and painless? Would people have had way more children because there was no pain? Would the world be extremely over populated because no one died and all women just wanted to have babies because it was such a blast?  Genesis 3:16 Then he said to the woman, "I will sharpen the pain of your pregnancy, and in pain you will give birth.

I find myself a lot of times wondering what pregnancy and childbirth was like for Mary, the mother of Jesus.  Did she get a break? Did she have 9 months of morning sickness and all the wonderful "joys" that many women face in pregnancy? She didn't get an epidural or any drugs, but did God feel for her and lessen the pain as she gave birth to the Savior of the world?

So many questions I will ask when I get to heaven.  I imagine there will be a long line of women waiting to meet Eve.  That poor women messed it up for all of us, and frankly she's not my favorite person right now as I am very uncomfortable and dealing with all kinds of pains in my 35th week.

Well ladies....get in line.  I've got a bone to pick with Eve.

it could be worse

Just when I think my pregnancy will never end, here are a few things I try to keep in mind:

Elephants are pregnant for 2 years. I'm only pregnant for 9 months.

A lot of species give birth to a dozen or so babies at one time. There's only one inside of me!

My baby will not have hooves. At least until she turns 13.

So yeah. It COULD be worse.

overwhelmingly blessed

Before getting pregnant with our little "oops" baby, I didn't think much about all that goes into building a little life and how amazingly detailed and out of our hands it is.  I was in my little bubble of thinking I wanted to be a mom, and have lots of babies and pregnancy would be perfect and wonderful.  It never crossed my mind that some women can't get pregnant. I never thought about all the women out there who have carried babies, and lost them.  And I had no idea how much you fall in love with a tiny little life when it can barely be seen with a microscope.  The second that pregnancy test says "pregnant" or shows a plus sign, you are forever changed.

From the beginning, I promised myself I would never let the fear overtake me, knowing that God is completely in control.  If he wanted me to have this baby, I knew I would.  He gives and He takes away. I just prayed that I would be the best mother I could be and the best influence on this little life, even if anything were to happen.

We have had no scares in this pregnancy.  We are immensely blessed.  Yesterday at our check up, the doctor said we have a "textbook baby" and she is absolutely perfect. I pray that she continues to grow for another 6 weeks, and is perfectly healthy.  And I pray that this continues to help me see how blessed we are, and do all I can to pray and love on those who have not had the easy ride we have.

My heart breaks now every time I hear of a sweet mother who has lost or miscarried a baby. If you have been on the joyous side of motherhood, or hit absolute rock bottom - know that God is in control.  He is the maker of all things, and the ultimate comforter.  For all you moms and soon to be moms, I am praying for you today and my heart is full for the blessings that God gives through the gift of children.

being "still"

"Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10
How often do we really stop to BE STILL? Not very. This whole pregnancy thing has forced encouraged me to stop and rest.  I only have two months left in my life until I don't have another human being relying on me. At least for many many years. That's a pretty crazy thought. It's so easy to get wrapped up in work, life, and anything we can find to occupy our time. As a woman, wife and soon-to-be mom I struggle to just "rest". When I'm at home, I feel worthless if I'm not cleaning, doing laundry or working on something around the house.
I'm thankful for the exhaustion that pregnancy has brought and how it has forced me to the couch on many occasions. I have one month left at work and then I will be home for 4-ish weeks until our sweet girl arrives.  I'm praying that I can REST and be STILL in the Lord and allow Him to prepare me for the major change that is coming.  Babies R Us and Target can't prepare me in the way that HE can!!

What are some ways you find time to be still in Him? I encourage you to REST this week and be STILL.