My Husband

happy father's day!

I am very lucky to be married to the best dad in the entire world.  His daughter adores him, and he's such a great daddy to her.  Every inch of her lights up when she sees him and she squeals with joy.  I love watching them play together and am so excited for her and our future children to grow to know the amazing man that he is.  Thank you baby for blessing me with the most beautiful little girl and for being such a great dad to her.  She has no idea how blessed she is to have that. This year for Father's Day, I wanted to do something a little different instead of the usual cards or tie.  (Yeah I've ever bought my husband a tie) Since we were both raised by amazing dads and my husband now is one, I wanted to honor them in a different way.  I made a donation in their honor to an incredible organization called Charity Water.

This money will go to bringing clean water to a village that has none.  Brook and I were raised being given everything we could possibly ever need, and a glass of clean water was such a simple thing to us.  But now, children somewhere will drink their first glass of clean, clear water.  I can't imagine anything more amazing!

So thank you to all the dads in my life for all you do for me.  I hope all three of you know how much I love you and appreciate all you do! I love you hubby, daddy & dad-in-law!!

he completes me

Tonight my amazing husband and I will go on our first date since the arrival of our daughter. I've been looking forward to and dreading this for some time. Only dreading because that means leaving my Jessi girl with a babysitter and I'm slightly obsessed with her. But more important than watching over my childs every breath, is dating my husband. It was so much easier before we were parents, and could focus 100% on each other. Now our lives revolve around diapers, feeding schedules and bedtime routines. But that doesn't give us the excuse to neglect our marriage. In 18 years when she is all grown up and hopefully moved out of our house, he will still be there. If we ignore our relationship to only focus on our children, it will die. The passion will go away, the laughter will cease. It will become more of a business arrangement than a beautiful thing God created and blessed us with.

So we date. We flirt. We keep the magic alive. Not always the easiest when at the end of the day I'm exhausted and covered in who knows what liquids that have come from my sweet girl.  A hot shower and bed are pretty appealing most evenings once she's closed her eyes, but the time alone with him is so precious and important.  I hope that in 30 years our children will know what true love is and will mirror their relationships after ours. What an honor that will be.

Because afterall, I love him more today than the day I married him. And in the very sappy love story kind of way - he completes me.

thank you jack bauer

To say that we are 24 fans would be a bit of an understatement.  We. are. obsessed.  We have watched every moment of every show.  I mean come on...we even named our dog Jack Bauer. Last night was a sad evening in our house when it all came to an end.  We said goodbye to Jack.  We said goodbye to Chloe.  It was an amazing run, and came to an amazing end.  Chloe cried...and I can't let Chloe cry alone.

A huge thank you to my husband for getting me hooked on this show.  Unfortunately, I didn't know anything about 24 when it began so I didn't get started from the beginning.  But my hubby took care of that and quickly got me caught up as soon as he had a chance.  I seriously think I have 24 to thank for our relationship because of the 96 hours we spent watching this show together to get me caught up. A year later we were married.  Thank you Jack Bauer.

We'll miss you Jack.  Thanks for saving the world.

where does the time go?

It was around this time 5 years ago. I walked into youth on a Wednesday night to begin serving for the first time at my church and the band was practicing. I remember thinking how good the worship leader was. He was wearing a red shirt. He approached me afterward to introduce himself to me, obviously thinking I was super sexy. Sucka. That's all I remember. I don't remember the exact date, because at the time I didn't realize how life altering that day would be. How meeting this boy would set into motion the rest of my life and amazing road ahead. Because I didn't realize he was my soul mate. My husband. Time sure flies by. We've been through a lot in 5 years. And now we are ridiculously crazy in love, married for 2 years and have the most amazing baby girl. She is 6 weeks old today. Did I mention how time flies by??

Last night I caught myself wishing away her infancy to get through some hard stuff I'm going through post-partum. I quickly caught myself. I want to savor each moment. Even when I'm sick. Even when I weigh more than I'd like to and my body is unrecognizable to me.

Because time flies.

And before I know it, another 5 years will have passed and I'll be checking her into Kindergarten. And I'd rather not think about that at the moment!

I encourage you to cherish each moment, even the difficult ones. They are the moments that God has given us and He sure knows what He is doing!

it changes everything

They say having a baby changes everything.  Well "they" were right.  It does.  It changes the way you eat, sleep, walk, talk, think, pray.  It changes your work life. Your church life.  It changes your relationship with your parents, family and friends. It also changes your marriage. This can be for the good or the bad.  I have a GREAT marriage.  I like to brag on that, because I am truly blessed.  My husband and I are extremely close, best friends.  We love spending time together more than anything in the world.  I always thought nothing could change anything about us...until now.

Everything changed when we brought this little tiny person home from the hospital and began our lives as a family of three. No longer did we get into bed at the same time and talk for hours, pray together and go to sleep at the same time.  No longer did we cook dinner together and sit to eat at our own pace.  No longer did we up and go as we pleased.  Our lives became centered on this child, and what she needed.  A little person completely dependent on us.

Sadly, it took me a couple weeks in to realize our relationship was going to take a hit if I didn't step it up.  I had become completely wrapped up in caring for her, that I had stopped caring for myself and for my husband.  Ouch.  That was a harsh reality.

Luckily, it only took a couple weeks in for me to see and learn how to continue to grow my marriage while still being a great mom. I'm glad it didn't take years. My heart breaks for those that aren't able to do both and one suffers. I hope that neither of my roles suffer.

I am a wife. I am a mom. I love being a wife and a mom.  I love my husband and the father of my precious child. I am thankful for every single thing he does for me and our daughter.  I just hope I can continue to be the wife he married who gave him 100%. Thank you baby for your patience as I figure out this new phase of my life.