my incomplete family

I find myself getting very anxious sometimes to get our family built. It feels so incomplete. We have our little firstborn, who is completely awesome and we're kinda obsessed with her. We meet little sister in 6 weeks (yeah....6 weeks from today!). But still. It feels incomplete. With waiting out the final weeks of this pregnancy and our pending adoption, it makes me restless.

But then I kick myself for trying to rush it....because wow they grow up SO fast! Look who is already swimming by herself!

I know that God has an amazing plan for our family. We are stoked that He has called us to adopt and is going to allow us to bring children into our family that need a forever home. It's seriously an incredible honor. But I'm dying over here!! I want to scoop up all those babies and bring them home NOW.

Basically, I'm impatient.

It's hard waiting.

Waiting for hubby to get a more solid job, so we can even be allowed to adopt. That part is frustrating sometimes. God, you have called us to this....why aren't you giving us the means to do so?? Is He telling us to wait? Maybe this is His way of keeping me from losing my mind by having too many tiny babies to raise!

My heart is anxious and so excited for what lies ahead for us. I wish I could dig into paperwork now, and get this process going. But we are waiting. Waiting until the time is right. Focusing on each child, each little blessing He's giving us. One at a time.

What are you anxious for now, and how is God teaching you to wait?

open for advertising!

As we are approaching our first adoption, the costs can be a little overwhelming. We're talking like $30,000 overwhelming. So we have to get creative! We are brainstorming up all kinds of cool ideas to raise the funds to bring home our babies, but it won't be easy and will take time. So, it's official. I'm opening up my blog for advertising!!! Every penny of the advertising money will go straight into our adoption fund. Even though we haven't even started paperwork yet, even that costs money. We are all about being out of debt, and want to get ahead on the adoption as much as possible. We hope to be able to pay every fee up front, and not have to borrow anything.

We are trusting God to provide for us, and we will do our part to love and cherish His children. We are following this BIG vision for our lives, and putting our compete faith in Him.

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the unused pregnancy test

Every time I open my top drawer in our bathroom I see a single, lonely, unused pregnancy test. It almost hurts my heart a little bit. Because there's a good chance it will never serve it's purpose.

We are done.

Well, maybe. Most likely. I thought my first pregnancy was tough with everything I faced, and so far only 16 weeks in, this is way worse. I know how incredibly blessed I am to even be able to carry a child. I am reminded of that fact daily when I look into the eyes of my perfect little girl. She's a blessing and a miracle. Every baby is.

I can't be the mommy I want and need to be for the 9 months my body is taken over. My body resists so much, and takes on a lot. I want so badly to crawl around on the floor and wrestle with my tiny toddler. I want the energy to chase her and enjoy her. But pregnancy makes me a different person.

So, as hard as it is to admit - this may very well be my last pregnancy. The last time I feel a tiny person move and kick inside of me. The last time I hold a freshly baked newborn in my arms.

This doesn't mean we are done. Because there are so many babies to love and who need a forever home. Although we have been planning for nearly a year to adopt, we are looking at the exciting idea of adopting 2 kiddos. We know we still want to adopt from Ethiopia if their government will allow, and are praying through what and where the next adoption will happen. Domestic or International? Lots to pray and think through in the coming years.

I believe the hard thing for me will be stopping at two adoptions. Just because my body can't physically handle more pregnancies, doesn't mean we have to give up and stop at two children. God has a bigger plan for us and He has 147 million babies across the world that need homes. If I can shrink that number by just a few, I am more than ok with that.

I think I'll keep that unused test as a reminder of the blessing my kids are that I carried, and a blessing my kids are that I didn't. Because even though it doesn't serve it's purpose, doesn't mean I can't serve mine.

Ethiopia Call to Action

Recent news out of Ethiopia has us saddened and anxious for our pending adoption.  Nothing is confirmed yet, but The Ethiopian Ministry of Women's Affairs is claiming plans to cut international adoptions up to 90%. Currently, they are processing around 50 adoptions per day, and claim as of today - March 10 - they will only process 5 per day. This is BAD news for soon to be adoptive parents of an Ethiopian baby.

The agency that we have most likely decided to work with, are saying they are still unsure of what this all means. I hope to know more soon, as I'm sure many other adoptive moms and dads do.

Luckily, the Joint Council on International Children's Services has put together a "Call to Action". I am praying that their 'Emergency Campaign for Ethiopian Children' makes a difference and the Ethiopian leaders listen.

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How can you help?

1 - Sign the petition to the Prime Minister of Ethiopia, Meles Zenawi

2- Are you an adoptive parent of an Ethiopian child? The Joint Council is asking you to send up to 3 photos and 50 words or less with what you would like the Ministry to know about your child – they will compile the information and send a book to the Ministry of Woman’s Affairs. Send your photos and stories to by Sunday, March 12, 2011 to be included. {Please note that sending photos and stories gives Joint Council unrestricted right to use the information you provide.}

3- PRAY This situation is in God's hands. These children are in God's hands.

Thanks you for your prayers over these children and that the leaders of Ethiopia makes the right choice.

my eyes were opened.

It was something about that day. The day my eyes were opened. The day we committed to adopting. The day that it became real. The Orphan Crisis.

I had always had a heart for children. For the hurting, the less fortunate, the fatherless. But I'm not sure it really made sense to me until I was a mother myself. Until I held my 9lb 5oz, 2 week late, amazingly strong baby girl in my arms for the first time. Then I understood the crisis.

All children need love. Need a home. Need a chance.

It was that day. That day in April 2010, when my newborn baby was only a few weeks old. That day my husband and I looked at each other and realized, we are called to adopt. It's what has always been the plan for our family, before we even knew it or said it out loud.

We are parents to a precious baby who hasn't even been born. Maybe more than one. God knows. It's been His plan all along afterall. It just took us opening our hearts, our minds and our home. To the hurting, the less fortunate, the fatherless.

I encourage you to open your mind. Pray. Ask God if adoption is for you. You might be surprised what He has in store for your family. Consider how you can make a difference in the crisis the children of our world face.

Just open your eyes a bit.


The Idea Camp is coming to Northwest Arkansas in just a couple of short weeks. I encourage you to learn more, and get to know this incredible community of people. People that love, share and grow together. It's an honor to be a part of and use my voice to educate about adoption and the orphan crisis. Take some time to learn more here!