makenzi's birth story

Our precious Makenzi Hannah James was born Wednesday, February 20, 2013 at 7:21am at Mercy Hospital in Oklahoma City, OK. She was 6lbs 15oz and 20 inches long. She arrived via scheduled c-section, as perfectly and easily as we prayed she would! We left home at 4:30 to arrived at 5am as we were scheduled. It snowed giant, beautiful snowflakes the entire way to the hospital. All was calm on that perfect morning, even mama's heart and nerves. birth5

We arrived and they immediately got to work. I took those final steps as a pregnant mama to the bed as they hooked me up to monitor the baby and get me ready for surgery. I rubbed that giant belly one last time, as I laid there waiting for them to wheel me off to the ER.

I was much more calm for this delivery than I was with the last, but also much more emotional. Since we are planning to adopt our next child, we just aren't sure if we will have another of our own. Maybe we will some day, but there's that chance we won't. This could be my last time to do this. As hubby prayed over me before they took me back, tears just poured as I realized how overwhelmingly blessed we have been.

Finally after what seemed like forever, it was time.

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The surgery went perfectly, and in no time we had our third perfect daughter. She was beautiful and all was just right. As they finished sewing me up, and I watched Brook holding his newest obsession I fell so much more deeply in love with him. With our girls. What a blessing and miracle they all are. After doing this three times, you realize how precious and miraculous it really is each and every time.

Once they got me back into bed and placed her in my arms, I was in love. We were taken back to our room for recovery. It was time for her to eat, and thats when the waterworks started all over again. I had made the decision very early in my pregnancy to not breastfeed her. It was a decision I made for all of us. I needed to be the best mom I could be, and that was a sacrifice I needed to make. It was VERY difficult to not have that time with her to be able to feed her myself, but I knew it was the right choice.

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She was beautiful, easy and precious. With wrinkly toes and pouty lips.

Recovery was tough. This was by far the most difficult of my three c-sections, and took me the longest to recover. They had a really hard time getting my pain medicine figured out for me that first day, so it was a really tough day. I was thrilled to see family and friends come in and introduce the girls to their new baby sister, but it's all kind of a blur to me and all I remember is the intense pain.

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My three perfect miracles, my heart so full I thought it might explode.

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Waiting-for-baby Baby M will be here tomorrow.

Go ahead and let that sink in a bit. Doesn't it just seem like yesterday that I was announcing our pregnancy? It sure seems like it to me. The past 9 months have flown by. This was my easiest pregnancy, but also at times the hardest because of being so exhausted. It's just a different thing going into having a third baby. You know what's coming, you're used to the exhaustion. It's just so very different this time around.

I'm so thankful for this precious girl. I can't wait for her to join our family and see what she's like.

I feel like I've been waiting forever for her.

Please pray for our little family tomorrow! C-section is scheduled for 7am and we will post as soon as possible everything precious thing about her!

Stay tuned...

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I've had a tough time recently with the end of this pregnancy. I'm chasing two adorable little girls around, and it has taken a toll on carrying a baby. The days are long, and my patience is short. We are counting down the days to the end (quite literally, we have a countdown chain!) and I'm anxious to be done. But in these last few weeks, I've started to question myself. Can I actually do this? Will it be more than I can handle? As I cried over a plate of brownies last weekend, and cried out to my online community (you guys!), I was uplifted and reminded why I'm doing what I'm doing. You guys kinda rock.

If you need some encouragement today, just read through this. Sure worked for me!!

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I am reminded that no, I CAN'T actually do this on my own. But through Christ, I can not only do this...I can excel at it! That's great news to a really exhausted mom. 

Being just a few days away from having my THIRD baby, it's a little scary. THREE kids. Under the age of three. I had a slight heart attack a couple of nights ago when I was so exhausted I could barely move and my two toddlers were running circles around me. WHAT AM I DOING?!?! Thankfully I can do this. And I will do it well.

And then I got a hard reminder of what I'm doing. As I was sitting in my last OB appointment, listening to my doctor talking to her patient next door. (You know how those rooms have those incredibly thin walls?) A woman who had been trying for 2 years to get pregnant. They had done treatments after treatment. I can't imagine what that poor girl had been through emotionally and physically. Broke my heart.

I sat there with a renewed gratitute for the journey I have been on. It's been a heck of a journey for sure. Pregnancy hasn't been easy or glamorous for me. It hasn't always been fun. But what it has been, is a complete blessing. I have 2 beautiful girls that I'm so very thankful for. I would go back and do it all over again. And again and again. (but maybe take a break for a while, ok hubby?)

As difficult as the end can be, the fact of the matter is what it will be over soon. Like in just a few days. And as I hold another little miracle in my arms, I will know how worth it the entire journey is.

And that through HIM, I can do this.