the adoption roller coaster ride

I've been pretty quiet the last couple of months about our adoption. It's been really hard, and instead of talking about it much, I shut down. I've always heard people talk about how hard adoption is, and how it's an emotional roller coaster, and now I get that. We've been riding this roller coaster of emotions and it's been exhausting. I've been afraid to move, breathe and much less talk about it publicly for fear of what will happen. 

We are in the "waiting" process right now. To educate you a bit if you don't know much about the process - it's a gut wrenching process honestly. We are sent cases and decide if it's an option for our family. Sometimes we see pictures of a birth mom or the child if they have been born already. You immediately feel attached through their stories, and unless you're just heartless - it's very difficult. You want to take all the kids and want to do more. It's actually pretty frustrating that there are 147 million orphans worldwide but adopting a child is so incredible difficult. 

So, we wait. And wait and wait. 

We are still around $15,000 short of the amount we will need to bring a child home. After 6 months of fundraising, I was so weary of it all. The Lord provided $25,000 in just 6 short months (AMAZING!!) but I haven't really asked for money or done much for the past month. I've really been asking the Lord what the best steps are for this and how we should handle the financial burden that adoption can be. 

I keep coming back to the fact that we as the church, the body of Christ, should be caring for one another. So, if I do nothing else through this process, I hope I can show others what it truly means to be the church. Maybe you're not called to adopt, but you are called to do something. It seems to me that people think if they can't donate hundreds or thousands of dollars, that they don't matter. That's a lie. Even the smallest donation makes a huge impact. It all adds up. If 100 people sit back and do nothing, then nothing will happen. But if 100 people step up and donate $10, that's $1000 closer to LIFE for a child. For a future. For a ripple effect of lives being impacted and changed for God's kingdom. 

I ask you, what can you do? How can you make a difference? Maybe it's not even through our adoption, maybe you know someone else that is adopting that you can help. Or maybe it's your time to step up and say yes to the gift of adoption. It will be one of the hardest and most wonderful journeys you ever take. 

If you would like to make a donation to our adoption - please check out our "Love Notes for Charlie" fundraiser. We are hoping to complete this fundraiser by Oct. 1 to get us one step closer to our goal! I'll be sharing more info on social media this week about how to donate to that, or you can do it right here on my website. 


Once an envelope has been filled with a love note, we flip it to the other side with a heart. I can't wait to see the entire wall filled with hearts!! 

Please continue praying for our family and our hearts as we walk through this time. We are so thankful for each and every one of you and your support!! 

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