overcoming my weakness

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I sank into my favorite "alone spot". A little corner booth at one of my favorite restaurants where there is bottomless sweet tea. For me, creativity and sweet tea pretty much go hand-in-hand. It had been a beast of a week. I honestly didn't even know what day of the week it was, much less was I really sure what month we were in. My heart ached, my body ached. I cried out to God, why-oh-why does life hurt so bad? Why is the world so harsh? Why does motherhood and being a women make me ache to my core?

As I let the events of the week hit me and sink in, it had me weeping. Sitting there, crying into my sweet tea with people giving me the weird side-eye. I was reminded that I'm not alone. I wasn't the first person to cry out to God in my pain. Opening to Psalm 130, I was encouraged by someone else who had sat crying into their sweet tea thousands of years ago, feeling the heaviness that I felt.

1 From the depths of despair, O Lord,
I call for your help.
2 Hear my cry, O Lord.
Pay attention to my prayer.
3 Lord, if you kept a record of our sins,
who, O Lord, could ever survive?
4 But you offer forgiveness,
that we might learn to fear you.
5 I am counting on the Lord;
yes, I am counting on him.
I have put my hope in his word.
6 I long for the Lord
more than sentries long for the dawn,
yes, more than sentries long for the dawn.
7 O Israel, hope in the Lord;
for with the Lord there is unfailing love.
His redemption overflows.
8 He himself will redeem Israel
from every kind of sin.
What incredible peace we can find in these words. His redemption OVERFLOWS. We have HOPE in him. When all else seems to fall apart around us, only he can bring redemption and forgiveness. I sat listening to a favorite worship song from Kim Walker-Smith and the words were like the sugar in my tea. So sweet, so necessary.
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I am counting on Him today, are you? 
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