When I look back on the week, I always try to reflect on the good. Because I'm a glass half full kind of person. I love linking up with my friend Blair because it's usually all about cute babies and the fun we've had in the past week. This week? My glass is low. It's about 3/4 empty. I have been walking through an absolutely unfathomable situation with one of my very best friends, and my postpartum anxiety is through the roof. Struggling would be an understatement. I'm broken. So very broken. I'm attempting daily to pick up the tiny pieces of me and find a shred of hope in between, but even that is difficult. It's one of those seasons where I catch myself crying out "God, where are you in this??" Thankfully, He is there to remind me every time where He is.
"When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you." Isaiah 43:2
THIS MAY DEVASTATE ME, BUT IT CAN NOT DESTROY ME. Right now, I'm devastated. But I can place my hope in the fact that nothing can destroy me. I'm held in the palm of the hand of a loving God and He has written my name on his hand! He will never forget me, even when I feel so very forgotten.
I sat tonight to try to write a note of encouragement to my precious friend, and my words were struggling. How do I tell her there is hope when I'm wondering where the hope is?
So I have to make a decision, do I cling to it or do I give it to Him?
I'm laying it at His feet.
"Surrender is the path to peace" - Rick Warren