Throughout the day yesterday, I made notes in my phone of little things that made me smile. Any time I was feeling anxious, or letting my emotions take over I would go look at the list. I had a precious friend tell me to do something special with each of my kids to remind me how much I like them. That sounds silly, but it's so true. When you are struggling through a tough time, it's easy to get caught up in it and forget how wonderful those little people are. Forcing myself to notice the little things made a huge difference in my day.
How would you like for me to share a few of those things with you? Yeah? OK.
The way Zoey wiggles when she sits in a chair, as if to get herself nice and cozy
Zoey's bedhead and gruff voice every time she wakes up from a nap
How Makenzi laughs at the ceiling everytime I lay her on the couch
The way Kenz settles into my arms and is so content there
The way Jessi says "burp floss" instead of burp cloth"
Jessi's laugh. Oh man, that laugh
Zoey's hilarious "kissy face"
That hubby of mine
I really didn't plan for that to look like a triangle but it makes my heart happy too. Sigh.
You know what else makes my heart happy? Each one of you. The piles of emails, facebook messages, text messages, tweets that piled in after my post yesterday. It was SO hard to tell the world that I'm broken, but it felt SO good to do it.
Some people may need medicine and therapy, I need the internets. Ok, maybe I need that other stuff too. Oh, and remember that time I went for a walk at the park and someone left sweet tea, a giant cookie and an amazingly encouraging card at my car for me?
It's stuff like that that reminds me I'm not in this thing alone.