needing refreshment

When I sit to try to write about where I am right now, it's tough. I'm torn between that place of being raw and honest and avoiding it altogether. But I always promised you guys that I would be real, so here it goes. I've hit the wall a bit. We are nearly 7 weeks in to this new journey with 3 babies and its not easy. Not at all. It sure is fun, but mama is struggling. I want to always put on a happy face and act like everything is a-ok, but I fear that's an unhealthy way to act.

Because I make it my goal to encourage other moms, it's hard for me to reach out and ask for encouragement and admit I'm in need.

Since my uterus got so infected a couple of weeks ago, I'm still having a hard time recovering. It hurts and has slowed down my recovery so much. I'm sore all the time, and my poor body has been through so much. I get headaches daily due to hormones, so we are trying to figure out a medicine that is a good option to help while my body balances out.

You know how they say it takes "a couple of weeks" for your hormones to balance out? Those people must not have actually ever had babies. For me it has always gotten a little harder 4-8 weeks in. After making it through the tough first couple of weeks, and feeling that victorious "yay, I made it!", it hits in a different way.

I have always suffered from some type of infection postpartum and then the exhaustion on top of it? Whoa. With my first it was never ending mastitis and breast infections. With my second it was more mastitis and and ulcer on my esophagus making it impossible to eat. Now, an infected uterus and non stop headaches.

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Can I ask for your prayers? I am anxious to be back 100% to be a great mama and wife. My patience is short with my precious toddlers and my amazing hubby is getting the leftover pieces of my exhaustion. I know it takes time and I need to give myself grace, but that is easier said than done some days.

Last night at church this verse jumped out at me and I've been repeating it in my head over and over.

"he refreshes my soul. he guides me along the right paths for his name's sake." psalm 23:3

Refreshes. He refreshes my soul. That's exactly what I need right now, and I'm so thankful that's exactly what he does for me.

Are you a mom struggling right now? I pray refreshing over you and your home. I encourage all of you to reach out to someone today and encourage them. You never know what someone might be going through and your encouragement could be just what they need. Let's love and support one another in this difficult and wonderful time of life as moms!