on my heart

I've had a tough time recently with the end of this pregnancy. I'm chasing two adorable little girls around, and it has taken a toll on carrying a baby. The days are long, and my patience is short. We are counting down the days to the end (quite literally, we have a countdown chain!) and I'm anxious to be done. But in these last few weeks, I've started to question myself. Can I actually do this? Will it be more than I can handle? As I cried over a plate of brownies last weekend, and cried out to my online community (you guys!), I was uplifted and reminded why I'm doing what I'm doing. You guys kinda rock.

If you need some encouragement today, just read through this. Sure worked for me!!

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I am reminded that no, I CAN'T actually do this on my own. But through Christ, I can not only do this...I can excel at it! That's great news to a really exhausted mom. 

Being just a few days away from having my THIRD baby, it's a little scary. THREE kids. Under the age of three. I had a slight heart attack a couple of nights ago when I was so exhausted I could barely move and my two toddlers were running circles around me. WHAT AM I DOING?!?! Thankfully I can do this. And I will do it well.

And then I got a hard reminder of what I'm doing. As I was sitting in my last OB appointment, listening to my doctor talking to her patient next door. (You know how those rooms have those incredibly thin walls?) A woman who had been trying for 2 years to get pregnant. They had done treatments after treatment. I can't imagine what that poor girl had been through emotionally and physically. Broke my heart.

I sat there with a renewed gratitute for the journey I have been on. It's been a heck of a journey for sure. Pregnancy hasn't been easy or glamorous for me. It hasn't always been fun. But what it has been, is a complete blessing. I have 2 beautiful girls that I'm so very thankful for. I would go back and do it all over again. And again and again. (but maybe take a break for a while, ok hubby?)

As difficult as the end can be, the fact of the matter is what it will be over soon. Like in just a few days. And as I hold another little miracle in my arms, I will know how worth it the entire journey is.

And that through HIM, I can do this.