it's been a while

I've had a very busy start to the year, and am literally sitting down to get caught up on blogging stuff for the first time in almost 5 days. With a house full of family coming and going, an exhausted/huge belly and needing daily naps I've been a little thrown off my schedule. It's been kinda a nice unplanned break, but also leaves me feeling very overwhelmed when I try to get caught up. You know that feeling?? I've been having a hard time feeling settled and content lately. With the baby coming in just FIVE weeks, I feel like everything is a bit crazy. I want to nest, but I'm too exhausted to do anything. Jessi has entered an "interesting" new phase lately that I'm really praying is just a phase. She usually acts out more when she's around a lot of family so hopefully that's what it is. If not, age 3 is going to be TOUGH. She's sure giving us a run for our money though.


So instead of "nesting", I go between feeling ready and feeling not ready at all. The nursery closet has a stack of unwashed baby clothes and is still filled with Zoey's 18 month clothes. The walls are undecorated because I don't know what I'm going to do in there. The nice thing about having a third girl so close to her sisters is we didn't need much.

It's hard enough to pour energy into my toddlers now, it's not going to be much easier when I'm running on zero sleep. Thankfully, they are OBSESSED with babies, so I'm hoping they love having their new baby sis around and go with the flow pretty easily. We chose to have our kiddos this close together, so I will never allow myself to feel guilty for that.

Our girls are so blessed and lucky to have each other. This is only a short phase in our lives, and I know some day I will miss the drool, spit up, temper tantrums (well, maybe) and hilarious stories from the 2 year olds.