it changes everything

They say having a baby changes everything.  Well "they" were right.  It does.  It changes the way you eat, sleep, walk, talk, think, pray.  It changes your work life. Your church life.  It changes your relationship with your parents, family and friends. It also changes your marriage. This can be for the good or the bad.  I have a GREAT marriage.  I like to brag on that, because I am truly blessed.  My husband and I are extremely close, best friends.  We love spending time together more than anything in the world.  I always thought nothing could change anything about us...until now.

Everything changed when we brought this little tiny person home from the hospital and began our lives as a family of three. No longer did we get into bed at the same time and talk for hours, pray together and go to sleep at the same time.  No longer did we cook dinner together and sit to eat at our own pace.  No longer did we up and go as we pleased.  Our lives became centered on this child, and what she needed.  A little person completely dependent on us.

Sadly, it took me a couple weeks in to realize our relationship was going to take a hit if I didn't step it up.  I had become completely wrapped up in caring for her, that I had stopped caring for myself and for my husband.  Ouch.  That was a harsh reality.

Luckily, it only took a couple weeks in for me to see and learn how to continue to grow my marriage while still being a great mom. I'm glad it didn't take years. My heart breaks for those that aren't able to do both and one suffers. I hope that neither of my roles suffer.

I am a wife. I am a mom. I love being a wife and a mom.  I love my husband and the father of my precious child. I am thankful for every single thing he does for me and our daughter.  I just hope I can continue to be the wife he married who gave him 100%. Thank you baby for your patience as I figure out this new phase of my life.