i was chosen

It's still a little hard to believe that I'm a mom. Even as I sit here in the middle of the night rocking my precious girl to sleep, it all seems a little surreal. I just stare at her in awe of the fact that she is mine and God has chosen me to lead & guide her throughout her life. I am overwhelmed with that fact. I don't feel worthy, yet He chose me. I can begin to see a tiny glimpse at how much God loves us - his children. He must sit for hours just watching us. He loves us no matter what because we are His. Even when my Jessi Girl is up half the night crying or leaves a very nasty surprise for me in her diaper...I still can't get enough. It is all so wonderful and perfect - because she is mine. I'm so thankful that God gives us these gifts to better see and understand His love for us.

I certainly don't have it all figured out after 6 days, and I have a long way to go. But all I know is I love this child with all my heart, and even if I'm not able to give her anything else that is all she needs.

Oh...and she's real cute too.