How do you say thank you?

I have a stack of blank thank you notes that have been sitting on my desk for about 6 weeks. While I could use the “I have four kids and I’m too exhausted to write” excuse, it’s simply not that. Yes, exhaustion is flowing in our house, but so is gratitude. It comes down to the fact that I cannot find the words to say. A cute thank you note from Target with some scribbled words inside just doesn’t cut it. I’m struggling to actually put into words what my heart is feeling in this season. 

When we started our adoption journey with about $1800 saved up, the looming costs staring us in the face - we knew all we could do was trust that God would do His thing. We did three Instagram auctions, t-shirt and greeting card sales, and made personalized pillow cases. We thought outside the box with fundraising ideas. Some worked great, some crashed and burned. We applied for every grant we were eligible for. It was not easy, and we hit rock bottom a few times questioning if we were even doing the right thing. Nothing in my life has stretched me more in my faith than adoption.You have zero control and have to learn that God is completely in control. 

I wish I could hug each and every person that made our adoption happen. The amount of people that made it possible is endless. Watching people so selflessly donate and sacrifice for our family blows my mind. I can’t stop thanking God for what He did. I can’t stop reading this list of names that made it happen. It really does take a village, and we are so grateful. 

The names you see below are just the LAST names of hundreds of families who made donations or purchased a fundraising item. (This doesn't even include the hundreds of businesses who donated products for our online auctions! Thank you to each of you too!!) 

Doesn't that list bring tears to your eyes? It sure does mine. For those of you that donated, prayed, encouraged or simply commented on a social media post. We are so thankful. We saw each and every donation. We read each and every comment. We felt every single prayer. We will never be the same and we couldn’t have done it without you. Thank you for letting God use you in our story. 

Introducing: Kendrick David!

It was Sunday, February 28. I had spent the weekend sick in bed with strep throat and after the kids were in bed I emerged from my quarantine to watch the Oscars. Around 9:15pm, my phone buzzed and I glanced at it to be surprised with a picture of a beautiful baby boy and a note saying “surprise, he’s here!” Little man came quickly without  warning, and we scrambled to pack and get ready to make the trip to meet him. I ran on adrenaline for the next 24 hours while my body was fighting sickness. 

We surprised the girls with the exciting news of his arrival the next morning, loaded up in the car and started our journey to our life changing future. It took us a little longer than expected due to me being sick, but we finally made it. We went straight to the hospital to meet the birth parents and baby boy. 

Walking those halls at the hospital were some of the most terrifying, heart wrenching moments of my life. What would she be like? Would she like me? Was the baby ok? Am I really cut out for this? A thousand thoughts and questions raced through my mind. 

Our birth mom was kind and gracious to us. She immediately handed me an armful of baby boy, and fought through obvious emotions of her own. We sat and chatted about delivery, how the day had been and how she was feeling. It took everything in me not to cry and hug her tight. I could tell how much she loved this baby boy. She looked at me holding him, and our girls kissing all over him - longing to have him back in her arms. 

We walked away after our short time together that evening, unsure of what the next 24 hours would look like. She had to wait 48 hours to sign papers, and my heart was so heavy for hers. I truly understood in that moment how difficult this is for a birth family. I questioned if we would go home with a baby that day - I just prayed she would make the best decision for him. 

Tuesday she requested to spend the day with him, so we spent the day as a family of 5 - possibly our last! We went swimming, bowling and loved on our girls. I snuck away for a little time to pray and try to make sense of all the emotions I was feeling. It was more than I ever dreamed it would be. I always thought if we did a domestic adoption, I would want a closed adoption and didn’t really think much about the birth family. This past year has completely wrecked me for these women and how difficult it is for a birth parent. I was beyond heartbroken for the loss that adoption is. 

At 6:30 on Tuesday, March 1 - we walked into the hospital with carseat in hand. The social worker met us with a joyful smile - she signed! The social worker told us that our birth mom was thrilled with us and knew this little man would be so loved in our family. She had made an incredibly difficult decision for him, one that I will never take lightly. I felt like I could breathe for the first time in 14 months since the start of our adoption process. I can’t stop thinking of those birth parents and the choice they made to give life to this child and place him in a home that he will be loved forever. 

We have loved the past 5 days with our Kendrick. He’s a completely joy! A super calm and snuggly little man, so loved by his sisters. He has been prayed for so deeply and I have dreamed for many, many years about the day we would open our home and our hearts to a child. I am so thankful for the way God orchestrated our path to him. God is so good! 

A baby boy nursery

It’s been so fun to put together a baby BOY nursery! It feels a little weird putting together a nursery because we feel like we are “out” of the baby stage with all our kids potty trained and being “big kids”. As much as I’m not looking forward to the exhaustion and sleepless nights, I’m so excited to have a tiny one in the house again. And don’t even get me started on how excited the girls are. That sweet boy is going to have four mamas! 

A little update on Kendrick! He’s about 35-36 weeks along and birth mom is doing really well. She’s happy and settled in at home awaiting his arrival. We are so thankful! Doctor’s appointments have been going well and we are praying for a smooth (and maybe a little early!) delivery. It’s so hard with adoption during this waiting time because you go back and forth between decorating nurseries and feeling so excited to wanting to hunker down in a corner and not breathe until it’s all over. Such a roller coaster of emotions! 

Enjoy this little nursery sneak peek for our little dude! 

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Triple Bunk Beds (with plans!)

We have been dreaming about custom triple bunk beds since we found out we were having girl number three over three years ago! They finally became a reality and we built these amazing beds for our girls a few months ago. We love how they turned out and the kids absolutely love them! Disclaimer: if you hate making beds, you will really hate making these ;) 

Shelves and bedding are from IKEA. Large wooden initials are from Hobby Lobby. 

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Take a ride in my swagger wagon! (Toyota Sponsored Post)

Over Christmas Break, I had the opportunity to drive a brand new beautiful Toyota Sienna! I’m laughing at my pre-mom self who refused to ever drive a minivan and now I get all heart-googly-eyes whenever I see one. My how the tables turn! We really loved driving this vehicle, and the girls fell in love with it. 

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Some of my favorite features: 

  • The spacious backseat. There was more legroom than I’ve seen in any other vehicle. Imagine no little feet able to reach your seat to kick you to the beat of the wheels on the bus. 
  • The bells and whistles. Whoa this had it. Bluetooth everything, a little microphone so I could talk to the kids in the backseat without yelling, and even a reverse camera (which was the kid’s favorite). 
  • An incredibly smooth ride. 
  • Push start, the back hatch and sliding doors all close at the push of a button. I’m surprised it wasn’t voice activated. I mean, it’s 2016 - where’s my hover van?
Christmas music with bluetooth linking made our week so fun! 

If you’re family is in the market for a new ride, I highly recommend the Toyota Sienna. It’s the swagger wagon after all, what mom wouldn’t want to drive that?